Open Forum

Everything that needs to be said has been said.

Someone actually told me that all she's tired of being "plastic" the way that she has been with me. She seems to have a lot of things buried in that head of hers about me. This, from the same person who said that I know a lot more than she does and that she could never reach where I am now.

I'm like, huh?! I've never been plastic with anyone - civil, yes. Polite, yes, but not plastic.

Figure it out.

Oh and one other thing: another person said that she was only talking behind my back because I did not respect her.

Hmmm... I just can't believe how people would mast being tattletale with the petty excuse such as, that's because you did not respect me. Excuse me?! What did I ever do to you? I have never ever looked down at anyone in my entire life. Some people may get offended by my authoritative tone and a strong personality. But I have never, consciously and viciously, created a web of lies about anyone or stare at them in the face and then talk to someone else about it.

As far as having that "authoritative tone", which I really can't seem to take off of me since I was a kid (and believe me, I've tried) still working on and and I may well continue to work on it till the day I die. As far as making others feel inadequate or that they can't live up to my "level" - I don't have a level. Beats me. Maybe I should talk to albs about it and to my best friend to see just what my "level" is supposed to be. Pourth Ploor anyone?! LOL

Someone asked me if what happened was effective. I have to say that I think it was. But then again that's because I went there with an open conscience and an open mind. After everything that's happened, these are the things I can say:

Very few people grasp the idea that when you say you don't bother with what's going on in their heads or you'll grow crazy, you don't really mean that you don't think about what they would feel. What you're only saying is, you're not paranoid. They may think badly about you or other people, but so long as your conscience is clear that you're not doing anything against them then that's it.

What you feel about yourself reflects on what you do. If you feel your some Neanderthal that no one should bother themselves with, then that will show in your appearance, the way you carry yourself, etc. If you are at peace with yourself that will show in how you carry yourself. If you're insecure, that will show too. If you're bitter about the world, about people and generally about life, then you'll continue to create a web of bitterness all around you.

I'm not one to want to always be sad or bitter about life. I want to be happy. The only one I have control over is myself - probably my authoritative tone nor my competitive spirit - but what I do with my life - if I want to live a happy and fulfilled life or not.

I have made that decision years ago. I'm grateful for my life. I know that everything has a purpose and as much as I continue to rebel against it, my will will not always be done. The only thing I can do is to decide to be happy, try not to think of evil thoughts, help others and do something good each day.

If others don't want to be happy, it's their choice.

For Want of Self-Knowledge

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... like enough of it already! :)

Popular People Highschool Style

Remember all those supposedly "popular" people in highschool who thinks and made others think the world revolves around them? They're not that far from the work place.

There are those people who volunteer because they like volunteering. There are those people who are making pa-bibo. If these qualities are used correctly and with the right precaution, these people can become an asset to their organizations.

Then again, there are those who are, according to my supervisor, nagmamaganda. And according to her, "Kung magmamaganda ka, siguraduhin mong maganda ka!" These are the modern day or workplace epitome of the highschool popular people. Ironically, these people are usually NOT involved in whatever issues there are in the workplace. They are mere spectators who have nothing have nothing else to do, but make others feel the misery they feel in their own lives. They sugar-coat what they do trying it make it appear like everything they're doing is for the good of the organization or society. The ones who are directly involved in work-related issues are usually mature enough to talk things after letting their emotions pass. These are the self-destructive individuals who eats into an organizations which would later on, if not nipped at the bud, lead to its destruction. I think what makes them do all these things and what irritates them is that no one would otherwise notice they exist.

They usually want to get the higher management positions. Most often than not, they almost always seem to get it only to fall short come judgment time. Then, they wonder why they never got the position they want. I think they always forget that the walls have ears and immaturity always shows itself in one way or another.

Someone told me not to mind such people since we're not moving in the same circles - that people who are not educated act this way. I ahve always believed in equality among men. I've never believed in "circles". So, my friend, I beg to differ. I would lean towards my aunt's explanation. She said that there are people with breeding. And those without it, can never acquire it because they've closed their minds to that possibility. I guess my other friend is right, sometimes you REALLY just have to be the bigger person.

I can say this. I let strike one pass. Strike two is a little harder to let go. DO NOT WAIT FOR STRIKE THREE.

Those who have experienced STRIKE TWO never liked it.

Whoever said I was a good person?!

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People Just Don't Get It

I don't know why it affects me when it shouldn't.

I read about an article over at MSN (surely all my pol eco pals are right now raising their eyebrows at why I'm even reading news from MSN) about Condaleeza Rice, Hillary Clinton and Angelina Jolie being in one HIV/AIDS event of the United Nations. The article seem to imply that Hollywood actors are NOT at all affected by issues of this world and are only after the publicity they get out of promoting issues or else they run for government. Whereas, politicians and government officials are trying so hard to look as glamorous as Hollywood actors in order to gain more publicity... And maybe this time around get the presidency. It appears that for the writer and the editor of the article, there is a very defined line between Hollywood issues (what actors ought to be concerned about) and government (what the government should be doing). It also stereotypes actors as senseless, dumb, and lazy dimwits who only care about themselves.

While it is a given that politicians and actors need the publicity, that doesn't undermine the fact that these ARE people. As such, they can be affected by issues like regular normal people. And like normal people, they have a right to do as they want with their lives. If that means using their fame and fortune to let people know more about certain issues, then so be it! If it means using their names and having their pictures taken in events as if promoting brands, then that's their prerogative. There's nothing wrong with using the resources in promoting your cause. There's definitely nothing wrong with actors - weather educated or not - asking for help on issues they feel strongly about.

If these politicians are acting like Hollywood actors in trying to promote their agenda, then that's their call.

It's hightime MSN and its editors learn that: first, Hollywood actors are normal people and are affected by normal issues. Second, not all of them are dumb. Third, efficiency is making use of the scarce resources available to you in order to achieve your goal in the fastest time possible. Fourth, there are a lot of problems in this world already. People should just try focusing their resources on helping in solving them rather than bashing people who are trying to do something about it. If you don't want to help, then just shut up and leave those who are at least trying to help solve this world's problems alone.

Amazing Show

To liberate themselves from the errors in film-making, they produced this unprecedented work of art.

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Money Matters

The first rule I created for myself when I started looking for work right out of university was: NEVER THINK ABOUT THE MONEY.

Everyone needs money since it's the medium of exchange people use everyday. You can't eat, go to work, pay your bills, help out some people in dire financial need without money. However, having been bombarded with values and ideas on how money can be the root of evil, I have been warned against thinking only about getting more and more money. The practical me, as I have said in some interviews, know and would admit that money is important since it's difficult to help yourself and help others without any means. Money is important ONLY as a means to achieve a greater objective - which for me means helping others.

Just last week, something happened that reinforced this idea.

I went to work earlier as per my supervisor's request. I was happily doing my job for at least 3 hours when a colleague arrived for work. I have access to my supervisor's profile since we have almost same functions. I guess you could call me her protege - if I even deserve the title.

This other colleague of mine who had the same access went and sat informs of my supervisor's desk and started clicking away. All of a sudden, she got up and started throwing tantrums telling the whole group under our supervision how much she worked hard during the pay period only to find out that her overtime were not correctly counted. Since I am authorized to look at the payroll (I do it sometimes), I took a look at it and asked what the problem was.

She informed the whole group that she did 20 hours or so of overtime only to have less than 20 hours counted in her payroll. I tried to assure her that we could still have it fixed and we could inform our supervisor about it. I also informed her that it happened to me before and what was lacking was usually added to the next payroll. I had hoped that it would end at that. Clearly, she had other ideas.

She went to her desk, threw her stuff against the "wall" around her desk, slid the chair backwards and then started sobbing. Then she started blabbering about how she was working her a** off and how her mom was getting angry at her for going home late... et cetera, et cetera.

I told her that it must be a mistake since I was still chatting through MSN with our supervisor when she was making the payroll at around 3 AM. I told her she can dispute it. Another co-worker also told her that it will be credit to her next payroll.

She did not stop there, though. She went on to sobbing like it was the end of the world and continued blabbering about the whole deal.

By this time I was getting pissed. I told her that I was going to re-do the whole overtime Tracker we have in order to facilitate the payroll next pay period.

Judging by the way she continued acting, it was as if everyone was out to get her and she was some damsel in distress faced with an insurmountable obstacle. Come to think of it, damsels act more lady-like. She was downright childish, unprofessional and disrespectful. moreover, it was affecting the work place's morale. It wasn't that she was saying anything directly against our supervisor, but the way she was acting made it appear like our supervisor was either incompetent or else she was out to get her.

I was so freaking pissed that I wanted to tell her, "Would you please freaking stop?! Stop actong like a child! This is a freaking workplace d#$%?%! This can be fixed, you know!" I swear, God must have zipped up my lips to prevent me from muttering a sound. It wasn't as if it was done intentionally.

I understand the fact that she was upset about not getting paid as she rightfully should be. I understand that she needs the money. What I do not and will never understand is how she acted about the whole thing.

I mean, what the f%@#?! It wasn't just unprofessional. Someone said it correctly for me - Mukhang pera! To sacrifice friendship, professionalism for money?! It wasn't as if she needed it because her baby needs an operation like one of our other co-workers do. She needed it because she was going to goddang freaking Boracay! what-the-freaking-shit-up?!

She didn't say anything derogatory except for cuss words which were never explicitly directed towards one person. Her actions were derogatory and mean.

Oh and have I said that she didn't stop there? Oh no, sir! She sent an SMS message to our supervisor about how upset she was because of the payroll. My supervisor, who has had only one-hour of sleep at that time, called us at work and told her to resend a corrected payroll.

And when payday came, she went on to send an SMS message about how unsatisfied she was with the pay that she got.

It's money for crying out loud! It pays your bills, buys you things, but that's all it's for. At the end of the day, Money is JUST money. Nothing more, nothing less.